Lyrics Gas Station Cultue

The Lounge

  

My mornings aren't so bad
Wake up in a bed all alone
Cuz some asshole honks his horn at 6 am
Cuz some asshole cut him off
I got 4 hours of sleep
No time for me to eat
Yeah my mornings are pretty bad
 

I'm late to class on daily basis
Staying up late debating stasis
What good am I if I can't truly say what I want
I'll be somewhere in the background
Till I make my way right out of town
Maybe they'll wonder where I went
Or maybe they'll be fine
 

I never really got relationships
Find someone who warms me
But I bite too early and burn my tongue
Shot myself with a loaded gun
I walk home in the rain
Cuz the cold doesn't bring me pain
It just brings me home
 

I'm late to class on daily basis
Staying up late debating stasis
What good am I if I can't truly say what I mean
Ill somewhere in the background
Till I make my way right out of town
Maybe they'll wonder where I went
Or maybe they'll be fine
 

My nights aren't so bad
Lay down in bed, feeling low
When some asshole honks his horn at 2 am
I guess some things never change
I'll think when my mind is pretty weak
I dont have the energy to speak
But my nights they aren't so bad

Irrational

  

I do the opposite of the voice
I live by making lots of noise
And I wake up to go to sleep
These dreams, they're made of glue and paper
A whole lot of hurry and wait here
Never enough to make the ends meet
 

Why would I sing, if I don't like hearing my voice
If I don't have anything to say
Cuz I don't feel like I have a choice
There's no other way
Some might call that irrational
 

I don't take many chances
People are afraid of change
And that's why I say goodbye
When I really want to say goodnight
And goodmorning, instead I'm mourning
A lack of courage and a never ending "why"
 

Why would I sing, if I don't like hearing my voice
If I don't have anything to say
Cuz I don't feel like I have a choice
There's no other way
Some might call that irrational
 

I wanna be mute
Still I want to be heard
It’d take a fluke
And it's a bit absurd
These contradicting thoughts
Are creating dots 

For me to connect
No confrontation from a constellations gonna get me out of this wreck
I must have a defect
 

Why would I sing, if I don't like hearing my voice
If i don't have anything to say
Cuz I don't feel like I have a choice
There's no other way
Some might call that irrational

Quicksand

  

I've been told that history repeats
But not about the wars, it's how people tend to sleep
When I wake up, I'm colder than the night before
The night before I had thoughts running marathons
And these thoughts they keep running all night long
 

I've got a sinking feeling in my stomach
That something isn't right
This story's already been told
I'm not finding happiness tonight
 

I have conversations in my head
And I've lived a lifetime in a breath
The scenarios I see they cause me to worry
The worry causes fury cuz I can't communicate
The thoughts I have, so I wait
 

I've got a sinking feeling in my stomach
That something isn't right
This story's already been told
I'm not finding happiness tonight
 

Or tomorrow
The days they don't change a thing
I'll be climbing while I'm away
No practice brings me out of the shade
And into the light
The shadows leave me second guessing the night
Am I alright?
 

I've got a sinking feeling in my stomach
That something isn't right
This story's already been told
I'm not finding happiness tonight
Looks like you're finding happiness tonight

Windows

 Windows, I've lost hundreds of hours
Staring through them
Nothing is changed when I get back in my mind
Time to erase all of my creative freedom
 

Cuz the table we're at has got a card on the black little booklet they leave you, paying for two
And your plate's got some food left, you push it away
I ask for a box that you'll forget anyway
 

I'm tired of leaving
And your one handed hugs
I'm the bug on your window that you can not seem to crush
Cause compassions telling you I couldn't do much if i tried
Will I try?
 

Hallways, some have doors
Others are straight ahead
With no other choice but to walk the line
Signs of danger leave no meaning when you're already dead
 

When the function is over, I stay the night
You're always right, I've got no fight
I'd call out your name, you'd probably answer
And I'd avoid confrontation, tell you that you forgot your sweater
And it's cold outside
Careful driving home tonight
 

I'm tired of leaving
And your one handed hugs
I'm the bug on your window that you cannot seem to crush
Cuz compassions telling you i couldn't do much if i tried
Will I try?
When will I try?
 

Four Leaf

  

Dear mystery
I hope this letter finds you accordingly
Honestly your monopoly on my mind
Is taking up all my time
I'm getting tired of wishing
The sky is running out of stars
People tell me keep fishing
But I don't want to make things harder for you
 

So I keep pulling these four leaf clovers
Waiting for my life to push me forward
I spend my life on a treadmill
I'm working hard to just stand still
I'm standing still
 

I'm still writing here
My thoughts they become a consuming fear
I'm a hesitant person persisting
I'm missing a chance
After the moment is when I have the answer
You've already gotten home
My nights a disaster
And I don't have the guts to be on my own
 

So I keep pulling these four leaf clovers
Waiting for my life to push me forward
I spend my life on a treadmill
I'm working hard to just stand still
I'm standing still
 

I can’t write your name because I'm insane
I do the same things you respond the same way
When I'm with you my fears melt away
If were both happy, what's more to say?
 

So I keep pulling these four leaf clovers
Waiting for my life to push me forward
I spend my life on a treadmill
I'm working hard to just stand still
I keep killing these four leaf clovers
I'm falling down, and not moving forward
As i fall off this moving treadmill
I will no longer be standing still

Big Plans

  

Denim jacket and earrings
Skinny jeans with a black band tee
Going out, coming home, and being happy
That's how the night was supposed to go
Combed my hair and checked my ego
When you said "Im sorry
I forgot about tonight.
I'm out with someone other than you."
The sorrow comes in waves and sticks like glue
 

Make plans that are planned to fall through
I know you're flakey, better switch to a new brand of shampoo
Been looking forward to this all week
Humans forget, I guess I'll just go to sleep
 

Hoodie, slippers, and ear buds
Baggy jeans with a blood stained tee
Staying in, overeating, feeling misplaced
That's how my days usually go by
Turn up the music, let out a sigh
Waiting to hear back
I won't hear anything from you
For at least another 2 weeks
Appointment scheduled, sir please take a seat
 

Make plans that are planned to fall through
I know you're flakey, better switch to a new brand of shampoo
I've been looking forward to this all week
Humans forget, I guess i'll just go to sleep
 

Checking out of my mind
I'm tired of being stood up all the time
Fuck the daily grind, trying to make you happy
Something I will never be
 

Make plans that are planned to fall through
I know you're flakey, better switch to a new brand of shampoo
I've been looking forward to this all week
Humans forget, I guess i'll just go to sleep

Daytime T.V.

  

Seeing you was the worst part of my day
Not because of you but because of him
So I'm sitting next to you with a bummed out grin
Wishing for these thoughts to just go away
Please just go
 

I can be such a pessimist
Damp from morning mist
The sun rises so we can watch it set
Fistbump with the abyss
Wrapped up in winter's kiss
It's the only one I'll ever get
Please don't go
 

I've been watching daytime TV
I'm really hoping that nobody will see me
I'm so sick counting all the money I've spent
Starving myself so I can pay rent
 

I've been catching sun rays in my car
Always going somewhere never to arrive
Running from my problems never works that's why I drive
Wishing for my gas light to go away
Please just go
 

Apologizing for something I said
Apologizing cause my cheeks are red
Killing time while I wait for the day to end
Get addicted to all my meds
Getting tired of being mislead
I think I've run out of friends
They just go
 

I've been watching daytime TV
I'm really hoping that nobody will see me
I'm so sick counting all the money i've spent
Starving myself so I can pay rent

Ice Breaker

 We've been ice skating
While I've been waiting
To break the ice
Skating around the thoughts i have
What will i say when you come back
There won't be any saving
Cause I'm prone to failing
These kind of social situations
I've never learned the rules of the game
Rules just get made to be broken
 

Better to take the fall
Than to never try at all
I can't take the risk
So instead I'll stall
I'm an altruist, with a wistful wish
You'll be happy, because ignorance is bliss
 

We're still out driving
Feels like I'm flying
No questions are asked
Some small talk around current events,
Doing a dance around what's on my mind
Tomorrow I'll be buying
At least I'm trying
Is the effort still nobel?
I'll always be driving you home
 

Better to take the fall
Than to never try at all
I can't take the risk
So instead I'll stall
I'm an altruist, with a wistful wish
You'll be happy, because ignorance is bliss
 

I don't need mercury
To tell me when the temperature rises
Look at the horizon
I'm kind of skittish
And not too great with English
When it comes to describing the beauty I see
 

Better to take the fall
Than to never try at all
I can't take the risk
So instead I'll stall
I'm an altruist, with a wistful wish
You'll be happy, because ignorance is bliss

 

Young Adults

 I don't go to college
School dropped out of me
A financial casualty
That I don't need
I can't work a job
That would suck my soul away
Until i've reached my dying day
Wake, sleep, repeat
 

But if I grow some facial hair
And stop wearing colored jeans
Start wearing button downs
I'd be taken seriously
I'm too young to drink my dreams away
I can smoke every single day
But what good is that?
I'm too old to act like I'm a kid
I pay taxes and all that shit
But what good is that?
 

I can't buy you a beer
It's the natural currency
Of my whole industry
And I hate tea
Still I play music
And since I'm under 21
I'm not allowed to have fun
At least not the kind we see
In movies and tv
 

If I grow some facial hair
And stop wearing colored jeans
Start wearing button downs
I'd be taken seriously
I'm too young to drink my dreams away
I can smoke every single day
But what good is that?
I'm too old to act like I'm a kid
I pay taxes and all that shit
But what good is that?
 

What's the point of all these years?
I could die in a war before I'm old enough to drink away the tears
They'll never adhere
If you're over the age, why wage a war on the rules that play to your own superiority
 

I keep growing out my hair
And I'm tearing up my jeans
I'm wearing out my band tees
You couldn't catch me wearing khakis
I'm too weird to sit in with the best
I can hope
But what good is that?
In dim light I sing and play guitar
I got dreams to go real far
But what good is that? 

Spunk

  

While I’ve been staring at the ceiling
I've been thinking about
How I see myself
This issue of self confidence
It's been abundant
And I'm redundant when I explain
 

When I think of you
I see everything I'm missing
It's not hard to see that I've been kidding myself
When I say I've got nothing to lose
I've got so much to lose
 

You've got Spunk
And I've got dreams
I'm a sailboat
And I'm lost at sea
Can I wash up on your shores?
I couldn't ask for anything more
 

It's always puzzling
To solve problems that don't exist
Anywhere outside of my pondering
Of situations that I'll always miss
 

Do you think of me
See a single thing you're wishing for?
Is it hard to see anything more than a kid
Who thinks that he has got something to prove
I've got so much to prove
 

You've got Spunk
And I've got dreams
I'm a sailboat
And I'm lost at sea
Can I wash up on your shores?
I couldn't ask for anything more
 

I can't express the way you impress
All I know is my own experience
Nothing lives up to your elegance
I can't digest your lack of interest
Do you even take me serious
Would you even take me?
 

You've got Spunk
And I've got dreams
I'm a sailboat
And I'm lost at sea
Can I wash up on your shores?
I couldn't ask for anything more

Good Intentions

 I don't say much out loud
It sounds better up in my head
It builds up like a raincloud
Storming down, contradicting what I said
I'm feeling more open, it's not what I hoped
All of my big plans in bundles of smoke
I spoke out of turn and I'm burned
Fuel the furnace and furnish my feelings of feeling alone
 

Good intentions
Keep on falling short
Of who I aim to please
Piece by piece
 

I could be fluent in french
My own language is foreign to me
My whole day is spent on the fence
On whether it's worth it to fight or just flee
I'm fighting myself over every mistake
Flooring the gas while I'm slamming the brake
I pace while I wait for my racing mind to run out of gas
 

Good intentions
Keep on falling short
Of who I aim to please
Piece by piece
A single feather
Would topple me over
I'm trapped in a choke hold
When all that I wanted to do
Was make it clear to you
That I care
 

I'm wasting my time
While my thoughts all rewind
Emotions grid locked
Still the feeling never stops
Good intention
Yet it seems it's all for naught
Cause now the heart of the message has been forgot 

Candid

 I know I'm not the man you expect of me
Sometimes a kid in a suit coat is all we can be
I'm so past waiting for a text back
I know you'll get to it when you have time
Give it a couple days and ill crack
I'll still be telling you that I'm fine
 

Come on grow up
You'll tell me when I play my music
No way in hell
It keeps me going more than you did
 

Feel free to let me know when you'll be done
Leading me down a rabbit hole of indecision
We're all confused, don't try to pull that card on me
We all have dreams, doned in wet concrete
Let it dry and sink in, realise that we're all a lost cause
 

Come on grow up
You'll tell me when I play my music
No way in hell
It keeps me going more than you did
 

A candid contestant for creating the perfect amount of disappointment
Looks like I'm going somewhere, when I lose the wheel and slide off of the pavement
The only place I'm going is 6 feet under in a couple dozen years
The only question is what I do while I sit and wait in fear
When you smile, it takes my heart a while to slow back down
When I'm alone, I sit on a throne of sorrow in a matching crown
 

Come on grow up
You'll tell me when I play my music
No way in hell
It keeps me going more than you did

 

Lyrics All You Need Is Here

Instead

So you say you’re feeling lonely, I know only what they say to me cuz, you don’t want to talk to me just forget about me, try to protect your feelings. Well I’ve been feeling hopeless when there’s only imperfection and rejection. Who’s loneliest? I only think of all I should have said so I won’t think of what to say next. Looks like I’m failing the test. I only think of all we never did, instead of what to do. Looks like I’m losing you. I’ve never felt this way before I’m not talking ‘bout love, I’m talking ‘bout life. How I don’t really want to live it, just forget about it. When I looked up to your crying face I never wanted to hurt you in the first place. Maybe you were right. Now when I think back to our crying faces I only wish I could have held your embraces a little longer. I only think of all I should have said so I won’t think of what to say next. Looks like I’m failing the test. I only think of all we never did, instead of what to do. Looks like I’m losing you. Don’t say you’re lonely if you left me in the first place. Don’t say life’s hard but then remove the good that's left. It’s hard to concentrate on anything but what I could have done, but I need to find out what there still is left to do to be with you. I only think of all I should have said so I won’t think of what to say next. Looks like I’m failing the test. I only think of all we never did, instead of what to do. Looks like I’m losing you.
 

Long Story Short

 Saw a new face just the other day, another broken soul to enter the fray. I say, “little girl what makes you sad?” She tells me that her friends were treating her wrong. I inch a little closer tell her I’ll be there, but it broke my heart to see her blank stare. Aware of her hair flowing down her face just like the tears as her words sprayed back like mace. I like a girl she doesn’t like me. What do I do, do I tell her I’m sorry? For having feelings that I can’t control. Long story short we don’t talk anymore. What do you tell a fractured heart fool when you know it won’t get better and the world is cruel? I’ve been told that a saint never lies but saving a soul is well worth a try. I like a girl she doesn’t like me, What do I do do I tell her I’m sorry? For having feelings that I can’t control. Long story short we don’t talk anymore. There was that girl again well this time around she hasn’t got any friends. My paranoia’s gonna get my mind fried. Look at the bright side this time she didn’t cry. I like a girl she doesn’t like me. What do I do do I tell her I’m sorry? For having feelings that I can’t control. Long story short we don’t talk anymore.
 

Comeback

 These days feel just as they did before. I guess I’m to blame when you walk out the door. Because nothing’s changed we’re still two separate people. You don’t realize that I want you just as bad as the day I asked you out, but you wouldn’t take my hand. You don’t realize that this silly high school crush, it’s something that I’ll never forget. You mean more to me than I’ll ever mean to you. Even though we’ve left a while I’ll still come back to loving you. To my dismay I find that the same words still ring true. So I curse the force that could force me into this place. My blessing is a curse and the poison is the only cure. I hope you don’t feel as you did before. That maybe you regret walking out the door. But nothing’s changed we’re still two separate people. I just don’t realize why you’re so against being with me. Anyone else I see is just a plea to forget about the way you forget about me every single day. You don’t realize that this silly high school crush, it’s something that I’ll never forget. You mean more to me than I’ll ever mean to you. Why can’t I just see this story through? Even though I left a while I’ll still come back to loving you. To my dismay I find that the same words still ring true. So I curse the force that could force me into this place. My blessing is a curse and the poison is the only cure. My quicksand’s flowing ever faster. The more you wait, the more I lose. No time for fate, it’s time to chooseMy breaths are getting shorter and rapid. The more you wait, the more I lose. No time for love, I’m leaving my fate In my own hands, which hold all that is real. My only decisions the one thing that I fear. Please make it clear, I’m giving this one more shot. Just cut my hope or I’ll slit my throat. I’d rather live in depression knowing you’ll never love me than living this endless procedure of follow the leader. Even though I left a while I’ll still come back to loving you. To my dismay I find that the same words still ring true. So I curse the force that could force me into this place. My blessing is a curse and the poison is the only cure. I’m drinking death forget the rest. In the afterlife I’ll forget my strife, but tomorrow is another day.
 

Too Fast

 Always trying with someone. Love is never right for me, I don’t know who I can truly be. Vehicle for you to get what I wanted, I never wanted to hurt you. And that’s what you intended to do. Open up your eyes, open up completely, so you can truly see. And open up your heart, so you can see what you did. You can see what you did to me. I’m moving much too fast, forgetting my meaning. I know I’m gonna crash, losing all feeling. It always ends this way who I love, and who I choose to call my friends. It’ll happen again, I’ll pretend that it’s okay. It’s not like I ever meant anything anyway. Open up your eyes, open up completely, so you can truly see. And open up your heart, so you can see what you did. You can see what you did to me. I’m moving much too fast, forgetting my meaning. I know I’m gonna crash, forget all the grieving. Why should I be something special? I’m told many things that couldn’t be farther from each other. Told that I should have a lover. Those who speak do not act, those who act do not think, but I’m still thinking of them. Open up your eyes, open up completely, so you can truly see. And open up your heart, so you can see what you did. You can see what you did to me. I’m moving much too fast, forgetting my meaning. I know I’m gonna crash. Forgetting my life, forgetting you. 

Off Limits

 Why? Why do I know it’s too late? I think I’ve already fallen, but I know that there’s no fate. I know that you don’t love me, and I know that I can’t love you. But that won’t stop my heart from trying to bleed me through. When you walk up to me I think of what we could be, but I think that I’m too far gone. A futile reaching towards you, the gentle brush of her hair. Another round of rejection, that’s the thing that scares me the most. I know that you’re off limits, a one way ticket to hell. I know that you're off limits, just one more minute and I’ll sell my soul. Everything else belongs to you. There’s no hope in tomorrow, the days are all the same. Sometimes I see your face, others I think of your name. No more sorrow in a dream where I am free. You’ll be right there with me, but in reality you’re just so far away. Another day. I know that you’re off limits, a one way ticket to hell. I know that you're off limits, just one more minute and I’ll sell my soul.Everything else belongs to you. I’d say that I’d love you until I’m dead, but I’m already halfway there. These scars I’m sure they show through. I only am because of you. Why do I know that it’s too late? I think I’ve already fallen, but I know that there’s no fate.
 

Late Night Cigarettes

 Started off with screaming. Now she’s all alone in her room. Her parents break a locked door, so they can keep her bleeding. Doesn’t matter that she does the best she can. Her parents think she only wants a one night stand. She won’t stand for this anymore. So now she’s crying out but everyone is deaf. There's no one left to cauterize her, sympathize with all the ways that she's been abused. A temporary escape from the man in black. There's no way that she could ever go back. So sad that society sees nothing wrong ‘cause the torturer gave her birth all along. I see the way you shake, I see right through your bloodshot eyes. No more tears will come. No more tears will run down your face. Started off just talking. Now I’m next to her watching her glow. Snuck in through her window, so I could keep her breathing. I lay awake all night just to fight it, the urges to fall asleep which is no easy feat. She never plans to wake up. Well I want to change all that yes I want to change. All that I am is a fly, some guy with a better future in mind while the torturer closes their eyes. A temporary escape from the man in black. There's no way that she could ever go back. So sad that society sees nothing wrong when the torturer gave her life all along I see the way you shake, I see right through your bloodshot eyes. No more tears will come. No more tears will run down your face.
 

Who I Am

I’m not quite sure how to begin. My life is a failure and I’m living it with a grin. I asked her out without a doubt, she said she didn’t want to be that close to me. Well now I’m beginning to see. Here we go again, another reason to make it end. With all my strength I’ll keep fighting on. And with it I will send my love to you, we’ll make it through. Cuz that’s just who I am. Who I am.That's just who I am. Why didn’t I see it coming? My band broke up but the sky is still sunny. Sure I might be broke, but I still have my voice. And that’s all that really matters, when all your dreams have been shattered. Here we go again, another reason to make it end. With all my strength I’ll keep fighting on. And with it I will send my love to you, we’ll make it through. Cuz that’s just who I am. Who I am. That's just who I am. I wish school would go away. Another project every single day. I see you walking through the hall. I still love you and that’s my downfall. I guess I’m my own man, and with it my own band. Feels like I’m running through quicksand. Here we go again, another reason to make it end. With all my strength I’ll keep fighting on. And with it I will send my love to you, we’ll make it through. Cuz that’s just who I am. Who I am. That's just who I am. Here we go again, nothing should ever make this end. Put down the knife and keep fighting. Being alone won’t help the pain you feel, but what if this pain it wasn’t real? And that's the deal. That’s just who I am.
 

Get Better

 Wasting days with my favorite maze of a human brain, known as the girl of my dreams. Memories a haze, back in the days where we had each other or so it seemed. Now you’re all the reasons why I want to die, I ran out of tries to fuck things up. So I got a feeling or rather it’s lack of, and it’s tackling the problem taking it all away excluding me. No things aren’t how they used to be but they could be better, so much better. Sometimes I’d rather not wake up from my sleep then things would get better, so much better. Try to convince me that I’m wrong. Cuz I think I could love you if you’d let me. My metaphorical mayhem of speech starts a streak of saying things I didn’t want to speak. To her, to him, to anyone who’s low enough to listen away. I’d like to take a moment to thank the ones who came. I wouldn’t show up to my own game. A pain in the place that keeps me alive, sometimes I’d rather it stopped, I’m sure it will in time. I know things aren’t how they used to be but they could be better, so much better. Sometimes I’d rather not wake up from my sleep then things would get better, so much better. Try to convince me that I’m wrong. Cuz I think I could love you if you’d let me. There is no fate, we work with what we have. A simple date on a calendar can make me sad. No moment can be replaced. Unlike the others before I will never forget what we had. No things aren’t how they used to bebut they could be better, so much better. Sometimes I’d rather not wake up from my sleep then things would get better, so much better. Try to convince me that I’m wrong. Cuz I think I could love you if you’d let me.
 

Riverside

 You can’t miss what you never had. I miss you every minute of the day. I never wake up without thinking of what could have been since you’ve gone away. No second chance, no first date, you asked me out, I want to see your face. Now you’re gone. You’re afraid of getting attached, I’m afraid of getting involved. I wait too long now you’re better off somewhere I hope, it’s out of my hands. Wishing for a change, writing out all your pain. The walls would speak if only you’d ask them what they think. The ground sure hurts when you’re this high up. The ink is running, red and erupting from the pen, it’s drawing what's inside. I’m sorry, I lied. You’re afraid of getting attached, I’m afraid of getting involved. I wait too long now you’re better off somewhere I hope. It’s out of my hands. A tree by a river, I sat stagnant you moved on to a better place, a better time without me. I’m so sorry that I never made you feel like life was worth living, pills aren’t forgiving. Life goes on, well I don’t wanna. I’m afraid of getting attached, I’m afraid of getting involved. I wait too long and now you’re better off somewhere I hope. You’re so far out of my hands. I’m afraid of moving on. I’m afraid of forgetting the events that led to a body by the river.
 

Autumn Leaves

 What would you say if I said that I thought today would be a great day to get lost in a forest, the trees leave a trail for us. Stumbling through the branches nobody else could catch us no not if they tried. Falling from this tree I fell in love. The leaves touch your face as I wish I would have You will leave as Autumn tends to do, maybe you’ll be back in a year, I’ll just have to wait and see if you even saw me at all. I’m still sitting here through winter and the fall of snow, I’ll be the first snowman of them all. The snow was just starting to melt when suddenly I felt feelings forI’m forgetting. Was it you or the one you’re standing next to? Too many of them crowd up my head. Maybe it was you a year ago, feelings change just like the snow. They’ll be there for a few months watch them go, and I’m sitting on this tree stump all alone. You will leave as Autumn tends to do, maybe you’ll be back in a year, I’ll just have to wait and see if you even saw me at all. I’m still sitting into spring, listen to the birds sing. What do they sing? They sing.